Monster Man has had such a good break from some of the worst problems he faces with Tourette Syndrome. After about five days in a row of panic attacks, which were also days filled with many episodes of rage, as well as about two weeks of a really bad head-shaking tic, he has managed to have almost a full week with no rage, no panic attacks, and very few mild tics.
Of course, Tourette Syndrome seems to like to throw us all for a loop. We had some storms come through last night that evidently brought back some of Monster Man's anxiety. He didn't come downstairs to let us know that he was scared, so he instead stayed in his room where he didn't sleep well last night. Of course, that has affected his attitude for today. We've already seen the start of what easily could've turned into episodes of rage had we not been able to get him calmed down before they worsened. To top it all off, the storms started while we were at church last night, with us driving home in the storm, which set off the head shaking tic and also brought back his 'painful tic'. As Monster Man's nerves were getting hit harder, his head was shaking faster, his eyes kept looking up in opposite directions, and he'd get that really wide smile. Between the eyes and the smile, he had quite a headache when we got home.
It is so sad to see him go through these sudden changes, when even Monster Man isn't sure what to expect with each passing moment. Sometimes, he asks me if he is 'losing it'. Other times, he asks me what is wrong with him and why he can't learn to control the tics, the anger, and the anxiety. I still don't have all the answers he needs, so all I can do is hug him and reassure him that everything will be okay.